| open letter: |
[27 Apr 2004|10:33am] |
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8) blueviolent is not a basket case, it was wrong of me to use her illness against her in the way i did, she really is a kind and caring person who gave me months of happyness and love, the slandering of her character was born of my own inadaquate nature and my personal frustrations, i am solely to blame for the split up of our relationship and take full and unreserved resposibility for everything that has happened since. i am in no way perfect and it was wrong to deface her character. anything that should have been said should have been kept private between us and to post it up in live journal was an error on my part. i am sorry for having to inflict my own trauma and flaws in my personality on those people on my friends list. it was wrong to expect you to support me, it was wrong to treat you like i did. i am a crap boyfriend to have, i was wrong to take her ideas and throw them back in her face, i should have been more supportive of her projects and stood by her when she needed it most. blueviolent is not a serial adder and she does not manipulate people. she is a creative and free spirited induvidual who just has different ways of expressing herself to me, i am also sorry for any hurt i may have caused her due to my own actions and inablility to fully understand her needs. i wish to take back any and all comments i made in her journal and such comments made to her friends relating to this situation. i unreservedly apologise to her for making her out to be the wrong one in the relationship when i can now see it was me that was really the root of the problem. i can only hope that this letter will in some part undo a small piece of what i have done over this last couple of weeks.
i am sorry for not living up to my half of the relationship.
..tone..
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| pretty neat |
[23 Apr 2004|07:00pm] |
at this time of day the sun comes from the west to my front room, the curtain/blind on that end of the room is always shut as it is next to the main security entrance to the block and i got tired real quick of people looking into my room, really it's not that interesting, so i am getting this urban shadow puppet show whenever anyone turns up, i know it's retarded but such things amuse me. yay for the mysterious shadow people walking past.
breathing is all screwed up thanks to high(7) pollen rating. gah!
bl00dy nice day out though, went for a wander to my metal bridge and sat there dropping twigs and stuff over the edge between my feet as i looked down in to the cool lazy water. it must be nice to be a fish sometimes i guess. it must be nearly summer, i had to wear my uv protective glasses today. argh, the sun, it burns it burns. yeah fu<k the sun man, the sun is evil ;)
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| it's friday, i've only just noticed... |
[23 Apr 2004|02:28pm] |
not that i matters much when you don't have a job.
but today is the new subject matter for this weeks
'shoppage on the b3ta site
*clicks over to check to see if it's posted*
If those dastardly commies had won the cold war, would life be any different? Would we be queuing up for our ciabatta? Would the Olympics be full of suspiciously hairy women? Would Tony Blair be a radical right-wing menace? Answer these questions and more using the power of photoshop
it's just soo full of potential...
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| house keeping |
[23 Apr 2004|11:29am] |
going to upload the last couple of weeks art
to the c0dez site and maybe fiddle about with
some design work.
have to do a little bit of shopping later too.
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| cool as fock |
[22 Apr 2004|12:45pm] |
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i'd forgotten just how good the Fun Lovin Criminals album 'come find yourself' is, i'm sitting in my front room surrounded by piles of photos, the sun is coming through the window and it's all gravey, hell yeah it is...
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| who needs love |
[22 Apr 2004|12:09pm] |
when you can have dexatrim?
pretty now available
without a perscription...
everybody's trash to somebody baby
so put on a dress and pretend you're a lady
if you can look at me with curiosity
i'll try to remember who i used to be
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| happy? |
[22 Apr 2004|11:55am] |
sex with strangers
hanging around in bars
women are from venus
men are from mars
getting married
staying single and free
marching for gay pride
finding your feminine side
smoking dope
getting blessed by the pope
dropping bombs
writing protest songs
joining fight club
taking anti-aging drugs
running wild
finding your inner child
the ayrian nation
desegragation
a holiday
getting paid
a mobile phone
a consolidation loan
mid-life crisis
physician's advice
medication
sony playstation
therapy
tai chi
philosophy
digital tv
a good career
microbrewery beer
losing weight
death by chocolate cake...
i don't make art, i make hamburgers!
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| Imaginary Girlfriend |
[22 Apr 2004|11:47am] |
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i get so lonely sometimes i wish that i was dead
so i dreamed an imaginary girlfriend inside my head
told myself a story, wrote it down
but i forgot that it's not real when you're not around...
for blueviolent.
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| i went out for a bus trip |
[21 Apr 2004|10:53am] |
went out last night, only got back in around 9 this morning as all the commutors were heading into the city i was doing the opposite, watched 'matrix revolutions', it still sucks i'm afraid, the only good bit is the fight with the mini mechas and the squiddies, the rest of the film was tedium. also watched 'snatch', now that's a bl00dy good film, i wanna caravan, s'for me ma! class!! bl00dy pikies :) made plans for trip out on monday to watch 'shaun of the dead' somewhere.
drank much beer and cider, smoked some class herbage, met mint, kat-2, wookie, liam, someladiforgothisname and i so wish i had my camera to capture L hugging the toilet covered in his own puke praying for death, that was much to the amusement of everyone else, i dunno, kids today just can't cut it when it comes to good weed ;D
got yet another rejection letter in the post from some repro-graph firm i applied to, this seems to be the current trend, i don't know why i keep bothering, these days i'm quite happy to get such a letter, at least they've taken the time out to acknowledge my existance.
going to eat toast, drink coffee and have a little nap on the futon.
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| Tickle's Original Inkblot Test |
[19 Apr 2004|10:40pm] |
tone, your subconscious mind is driven most by Peace
You have a deeply-rooted desire to make peace in the world. Whether through subtle interactions with loved ones, or through getting involved in social causes, it is important to you to be able to influence the world in a positive way.
You have a deep respect for humankind. You care about the future of the world, even beyond your own involvement in it, and you inspire others to feel the same way. Your innate drive toward peace guides you in daily life towards decisions that are respectful toward yourself and others.
Your psyche is very rich; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.
:D
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